week one, day 2 down. stuck to my meal plan the entire day, and feel pretty good about it. tonight we're going out to dinner with a friend, but i've already entered into sparkpeople the meal that i plan to eat: grilled veggies with tofu, sauteed green beans (not the best for me, but what can you do), and brown rice. yum. i can't wait. my stomach is growling just thinking about it.
dieting sucks. i hate restricting myself so much, but i know it's good for me. and when you start tracking everything that you eat, and you enter it into sparkpeople, you realize just how many freakin' calories you eat. it's scary. so, i'm dieting. and i hate it. but hunger pains are becoming my friends. and pretty soon, they'll go away, and i'll stop craving things like pizza and donuts and pasta smothered in cheese.
dear god i'm hungry.
also continuing the exercise. even got up early this morning to box.
AND i've been doing my chores. wow. who the heck am i?
i could say it's all for the vegan jokerz candy bar that i'm saving as a reward for my efforts this week, but to be honest, i don't even want it. it's amazing how quickly your body turns against sugar and grease. i'm glad for it. it'll make this whole dieting thing a lot easier.
tonight we also get to watch two shows with actresses who are inspirations for my weight loss. taylor schilling is just wicked skinny and pretty, but mariska hargitay is curvy and muscular, and i would be happy to have a body like hers. yes, i'd prefer to be skinny enough to be androgynous, but i know that won't happen. even when i was 110 pounds, i still had those hips. going to do a bit of pampering tonight, too, and paint my nails while we watch shows. even though i tend to look like i have the hands of a drag queen when i paint my nails, it still makes me feel pretty. sort of. so i'm gonna do it.
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