i heart hunger pains

when you're trying to make big life changes, sometimes it's the little things that make a difference. yesterday i stuck to my meal plan 100%. i was starving in the evening, but i only ate the vegan jello i had made for myself. for me, not snacking in the evening is a huge deal. it was a big success. and i feel stronger today because of it. something i found back when i dieted in high school was that self-control can be a huge high. back then, i took it to the extreme, and allowed it to bring me to the point of near-anorexia, but i know i won't make that mistake again. i enjoy eating too much now. when i was in high school, i could only stomach chicken, pizza, and bagels. so giving up food wasn't a big deal.

so, i'm going to ride this high and hope that i can continue to make the right choices. i won't starve myself or get sick for the sake of losing weight, but i know now that i can beat that temptation. and i have to remember how good it feels the next time i want to shove some potato chips in my face.

after weighing in last night, and looking at my goals, it looks like i could lose the weight i need to lose in one year. i want to drop 130 pounds. it's about 2.5 pounds per week, which i think is totally doable. the caloric restriction that sparkpeople gives me is a little scary, but i'm determined to make it work. measuring cups and hunger pains are going to be my new best friends. but as i begin to lose weight, and my body adjusts to a new way of eating and being, it won't be so bad. and then it'll just become a new way of life for me.